It’s hard to write this post and remain anonymous as I have up to now. This past week brought nothing but heartache to my family, and for my sister and I it is only three weeks after losing our grandmother.
My stepbrother was murdered on Monday. He left his house on Monday morning and never made it to one of his appointments or home that night. He was found in a cornfield, dead, with a bullet wound. I’m only sharing with you what the papers are telling the public as we still have no motive or idea who did it.
I’m obviously mourning the loss of a brother (who I’m wishing I would have found the extra hour to visit with when home for grandmas funeral) but even more I’m in agony for my sister in law.
I can’t imagine what I would do if “D” were taken from me.
It’s somewhere around 430am and I’m in bed with “N”, who is falling back to sleep on my chest. As I initially sat here I looked over at my husband and thought back to six weeks ago when our baby was born. I am filled with infinite amounts of love for this man, who has changed my life for the better in so many ways.
And the amazing thing is, we didn’t even know each other three years ago. Three years ago I was in a completely different , abusive relationship, wondering how much longer I could last in that marriage.
And now.. Here I am.
Five weeks ago I wrote about how I wanted to limit my Candy Crush time. Now I can’t remember the last time I played.
A few days ago I complained about my exhaustion. Tonight I feel completely energized, as if my live has filled me with unlimited quantities of caffeine.
I’ll say it a million times… I love my husband. But working with him certainly has its challenges.
I’ve spared you the details of our business up to now, however for the purpose of you understanding my struggles I feel I need to open up a little more. PART of our business is graphic design. (This is only about 30% of our business).
“D” and I are both right brained individuals and “D” has enjoyed learning the ins and outs of Illustrator, Photoshop and 3D Studio Max over the past year and a half. As much as he’s learned, however, his eye for graphic design is sometimes off. In the past few days its been very off. Clients are not liking what he’s been giving them and I’ve been redoing his work. It’s exhausting, especially when I have my own workload to get done.
So now it’s 3:45 in the morning, I’ve just finished redoing a tee-shirt design and I haven’t even touched my work tonight.
Poop… 3:46… The baby’s starting to fuss again. I think I’m going to be bald from pulling my hair out by the time the sun comes up.
I apologize for my gripe sessions yesterday morning. I was obviously overtired and worn down. I ended up laying down with “N” at about six and falling alder until 930 when “D” woke up.
I must say… Being a self employed couple that works at home definitely has it’s perks where sleep is concerned.
Anyway… Hubby immediately saw that I was exhausted and told me to stay in bed. And I did… By accident… And slept til noon.
The sleep did a ton of good though because I had major ideas yesterday. I received an email from a wan in my industry telling me about an upcoming event. Essentially she sold the right to 100 people to pick her brain for $600. All 100 slots sold so she made $60,000 for six weeks of work.
I’ve decided to build our services to do what she’s doing.