Day 63 Post 1 – Give Me A Break

Alright. I admit there is a huge possibility that I am just hormonal and thus more irritable, but damn… Some people really rub me the wrong way.

I’m going to write another post about this later today because I’m exhausted.

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Day 61 Post 1 – Double Dose of Crap

It’s hard to write this post and remain anonymous as I have up to now. This past week brought nothing but heartache to my family, and for my sister and I it is only three weeks after losing our grandmother.

My stepbrother was murdered on Monday. He left his house on Monday morning and never made it to one of his appointments or home that night. He was found in a cornfield, dead, with a bullet wound. I’m only sharing with you what the papers are telling the public as we still have no motive or idea who did it.

I’m obviously mourning the loss of a brother (who I’m wishing I would have found the extra hour to visit with when home for grandmas funeral) but even more I’m in agony for my sister in law.

I can’t imagine what I would do if “D” were taken from me.

Day 36 Post 1 – Time Changes Everything

It’s somewhere around 430am and I’m in bed with “N”, who is falling back to sleep on my chest. As I initially sat here I looked over at my husband and thought back to six weeks ago when our baby was born. I am filled with infinite amounts of love for this man, who has changed my life for the better in so many ways.

And the amazing thing is, we didn’t even know each other three years ago. Three years ago I was in a completely different , abusive relationship, wondering how much longer I could last in that marriage.

And now.. Here I am.

Five weeks ago I wrote about how I wanted to limit my Candy Crush time. Now I can’t remember the last time I played.

A few days ago I complained about my exhaustion. Tonight I feel completely energized, as if my live has filled me with unlimited quantities of caffeine.

Wow. So this is what true happiness feels like…

XOXO

Day 1 Post 1

Good morning. Hmmm, I don’t know who I’m actually saying good morning to as this is my first post on this blog. Yes, I actually have other blogs, successful blogs, however in the interest of keeping my business and my family anonymous I decided to start a new one. So, ta da! Welcome!

You might be surprised to know that I am starting this with a newborn baby. Baby “N” is eight days old and is amazing in every single way. Just like her daddy and brothers, she makes my life just that much more awesome. She is actually one of my inspirations to begin this blog and accountability tool. I need to be in better control of my time, and stop wasting it so that I/we can achieve all of our life goals.

Before I go further, I want to mention that I am not at all materialistic. I don’t need a fancy house or car, designer clothes or accessories, or anything that will make people think I have a lot of money. Actually, I absolutely don’t want any of that crap. Yes, I said crap. To me, the sum of my life will be about the love I had for other people and the love those people had for me. With that said, however, I do still have goals I would like to achieve along my road of life.

The biggest goal right now is maintaining a positive balance in the bank account. I know that may not sound like a hard goal to achieve for some people, but for me and hubby “D” it’s extremely difficult. We both lived what felt like a complete lifetime with other people before we met each other three years ago. Due to circumstances in both our lives, both of our credit ratings are shitty, and between the two of us we have NO credit cards. That’s correct…  None, nada, zilch. We like it that way, however living without credit cards has its downfall, especially when self-employment income is reduced to ZERO due to the birth of a baby,

So, despite the fact that I have a sleeping newborn in my arms and my wireless keyboard on my lap, my first goal is to get back to work. I must admit that Candy Crushers on Facebook has recently captured my attention and steals way too much of my time. If I had gotten paid for the time I spent playing that game I would be rich. I need to severely cut my Candy Crushers game time out of my day.

The journey to greatness requires a first step, so I need to develop a game plan. I think tomorrow, to start, I will not play Candy Crushers during the day. Yes, I’m “on maternity leave” and spend a LOT of time in the recliner breastfeeding my daughter. BUT…  I also have three books (fiction and non-fiction) that I’ve started writing PLUS two blankets (one for each of my sons) that I would like to finish knitting this decade. In addition, I have client projects that, although they don’t have a deadline, I could be working on and billing my time for.

So, tomorrow’s goals:

  • No Candy Crushers between 9am and 5pm
  • Get all laundry folded and put away
  • Clean up kitchen (minimal work needed)
  • 4+ hours of billable time to clients
  • Pick up lost stitches on R’s blanket
  • 6+ rows knit on R’s blanket

I’ll update during the course of the day tomorrow with how I’m doing.